Probably the best leader I had ever had, period. Probably the most compassionate, patient nurse I had ever seen work. Ma’am, you have people mourning for you from one side of the world clear to the other. The ICU you led, Washington state, Guam, Japan, Afghanistan, everywhere. I cannot imagine how your family feels, you were far too young. The Navy, medicine, your family, and all the people you touched just lost a genuinely good person. I wish I werent deploying or I would surely be there for your service, that seems so petty after everything you did for us.
So fucking what PREVENT class. Dont dock me 10 points for doing drugs before age 15. Or 8 points for having sex and then wanting to leave because I dont like the person. Your point system is dumb. I AM NOT THE UNNAMED CATEGORY ABOVE HIGH RISK.
“well, ok, the process is two pretty simple steps: First, you go over there and fuck yourself, and then why don’t you come back and see who still doesn’t give a shit”
My eyes aren’t white
So i get this text while im sleeping that a kid died in our hospital today. Great, what else is new in a god damn hospital and why are you waking me up to tell me this.
Then I was awake.
and awake.
and awake.
And Im teaching people tomorrow what to do in these situations. Not some stupid CPR class, like teach the doctors what dosages of what medications to give. Teamwork. Communication. “Psychomotor” skills. Whatever. What if one of my students didn’t pass it, or I let them slide a little too easy? Not that ACLS is for kids, thats PALS, but a lot of it applies across the spectrum of medicine. What if I gave up on the sim lab like everyone said I should. I was at some stupid (it was actually pretty fucking cool) conference today and some of best names in PNW hospitals were there. All their programs were supported, they were sent places. Why isn’t high fidelity simulation a care at ours? Because we don’t see it often enough? Because noone gets enough reminders? Ive been twiddling my thumbs for a year, teaching every now and then when I should have a classroom full of students 5 days a week. Doctors, nurses, paramedics. I should be hosting other instructors, the students shouldn’t be coming up and blindly asking what we can offer for courses. What kind of fucking leadership is it in medicine when education, the pinnacle humanity, what our race advances off of is turned a cheek to. Wake the fuck up.
Just like a recycled meme.
Sat in lodge for the first time in awhile. Always nice to go back, never know why I stop, lot’s of complaints about the younger generation. I’m still fighting with growing up, guessed that’s why I decided to take some teenagers spot shoveling for one of the brothers tomorrow, maybe it was because I couldn’t donate to the brothers over in kentucky. Why am I not being deployed their? To help rebuild my brothers home’s that had them destroyed. Virtus Junxit Mors Non Separabit, if only for the hours of pain i went through to not allow me to forget that verse, or for the lining inside my ring with the same phrase, I don’t think many other sayings stick with me. Good people always stick together, gravitate toward eachother, know eachother without speaking. Even if the first time we meet is after your last embrace.
Memento Mori.
You would do well to remember you have little time left.
